I've lost and I've won

I lost my temper when my brother almost burned down the house
I lost my motivation with senioritis
and I lost a bet after 3 games of pool
but I didn't mind losing

I know a boy that likes to throw names in the air
probably hoping to catch my reaction

but I won't let him win anything so I just turn my back and laugh
but maybe that's the reaction he's looking for
and maybe I'm the one that's actually losing

I won an award for "most easy going" once
and it's actually one of my favorite awards
because some people are strait up crazy insane drama
and I'm glad people don't think I'm one of them

I haven't lost my family
but I didn't win anything when they said
18 years needed to prove it's worth the money


I lost a sock the other day but found a lucky penny the next and maybe karma's a real thing
and no one can lose without trying to win and no one can win without first feeling a loss
and I don't know what I'm trying to say
but I know that's probably because I've lost too much sleep


I've won 18 years but I've lost a lot on the way here